Friendship is the only true love I really know in life. I don’t know how it feels like to be in love or to have that similarity with someone on an intimate level. Sure, I had experiences but nothing has come close to the kind of love that I have from friendships. Men come and go but my girlfriends always stay. I suppose it is the same for most men, as well.
At this point of my life, I would be okay with settling down with just myself with a company of good friends. I learned that most of us don’t get the lucky lot in life and get to spend the rest of our lives with our “best friend” as a lover. Sometimes a few people slip through those cracks and get to have someone they get to marry and have children. Other times, love isn’t as simple as getting married and living happily ever after. Some people live their lives experiencing only small whimsical romances and putting love in the backburner because of life’s harsh circumstances or fate. Love just isn’t what we expected out of romances and fairytales. In fact, love is much more complicated.
If you’re like me, I’m sure you’re tired of looking for love in the wrong people and places. Tired of feeling rejected, getting false hopes up, and having another connection fail. It’s exhausting and not worth the effort anymore. I don’t mind being friends, but anything more becomes a new territory of anxiety. I don’t want to deal with another unplanned heartbreak or reveal a dark past that I want to keep buried. New people do not need to know about my faults, mistakes, or fears. They don’t need to know anything more than a simple light hearted conversation and maybe some dinner for an hour every now and then. Sure, I might sound negative but this is the best way that I live my life worry free.
I have the choice to make decisions and run my life the way I wish it to be without conflict. If I want children, I can adopt. If I’m lonely, I’ll make other lonely friends. If I’m bored, I’ll read a good book. If I’m sad, I’ll wipe my own tears. If I need affection, I hug my sisters. Life becomes easy and flowing when I realize that love isn’t always about romance or passion. I learned that passion sizzles out fast and romance is nothing but a fairytale.
If someone truly likes me for who I am without thinking I’m incompetent, inexperienced, or not enough for them, then maybe I’ll give them a chance. I’m always open to possibilities but I refuse to be disrespected again. I will not make the same mistakes in love and just because I may not be enough for one person, doesn’t mean I or anyone else is unworthy. Love is about acceptance and support. I receive plenty of love from my friends and some family members. I don’t need anyone else but I am open to wanting someone else only if they meet me halfway. Friendship is lit but anything more than that is a path I don’t want to go down any time soon without proper precautions.
I choose my friends, family, and myself. That’s all the love I really need. Romantic love is more of a wasted effort without friendship and compatibility.
Peace, love, and blessings,